You where my all, the one I adored, The one who I trusted the most in the world. I gave you the pureist of me. You asked me to trust you. See my love was real, i guess yours was fake because i would have never lied to you or pushed you away. You have no idea how much I have cried asking the Lord "why my heart", why did you break me in half, this pain that consumes me and won't let me think . My heart had never felt such pain, yet the one who asked me to trust caused this enourmous hurt and disappointment and yes, shame. Don't worry about saying sorry or wishing me the best. What goes around comes around and that is what i have to say about that. Adios Mi Amor My Bay this Love is the One you let slip away. Don't think that I will cry forever. I love myself too much. But yes know this you hurt me soooo damn much. One day the only one you gave away will be the one your wishing for. Why my heart????
Why do men have to be so cruel sometimes? Well hell, for that matter, women too?
Well. I don't think that all people are cruel to one another. I do think that some people are just inherently evil and seek out those of whom they can take advantage. Predators exist in every species and there are different types of predatory behavior, ranging in style from overt to passive aggressive. Some predators consume their prey quickly and painlessly, while others are more slow and deliberate.
Humans often become emotional prey when they are unable to self-validate and therefore seek that validation from others, which can be a weakness. Predators have an uncanny ability of finding that weakness and exploiting it.
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oh yes, you must always satisfy the monkey. Strong and Beautiful smells like a monkey
Well all i can say is that it gets easier everyday. It is a new day and i feel good. Things are starting to turn in my direction, and it all doesn't look nearly as bad . What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. It will be quite a while before i look for love again, and i hope it finds me instead of me searching for it. I need to take care of ME right now and that is my plan. No more 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I am taking all forward steps and not letting this "predator" bring me down anymore.
Plush wrote: Well all i can say is that it gets easier everyday. It is a new day and i feel good. Things are starting to turn in my direction, and it all doesn't look nearly as bad . What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. It will be quite a while before i look for love again, and i hope it finds me instead of me searching for it. I need to take care of ME right now and that is my plan. No more 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I am taking all forward steps and not letting this "predator" bring me down anymore.
You Go Girl!!!!!!!!
Take baby steps at first...and let them build in the direction you want to go...and above all...Attatidude...Positive at all times...no matter what!!!!!!
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"Fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out" Romans 12, verse 2
Plush wrote: Well all i can say is that it gets easier everyday. It is a new day and i feel good. Things are starting to turn in my direction, and it all doesn't look nearly as bad . What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. It will be quite a while before i look for love again, and i hope it finds me instead of me searching for it. I need to take care of ME right now and that is my plan. No more 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I am taking all forward steps and not letting this "predator" bring me down anymore.
Love should come naturally, you shouldn't have to look for it. Yes, you absolutely need to take care of you but there are two other people who come first...I know that you know this, but right now your needs are in second place, other than what you have to do for yourself to keep well for them.
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oh yes, you must always satisfy the monkey. Strong and Beautiful smells like a monkey
Well all i can say is that it gets easier everyday. It is a new day and i feel good. Things are starting to turn in my direction, and it all doesn't look nearly as bad . What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. It will be quite a while before i look for love again, and i hope it finds me instead of me searching for it. I need to take care of ME right now and that is my plan. No more 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I am taking all forward steps and not letting this "predator" bring me down anymore.
Love should come naturally, you shouldn't have to look for it. Yes, you absolutely need to take care of you but there are two other people who come first...I know that you know this, but right now your needs are in second place, other than what you have to do for yourself to keep well for them.
Yep!!! Butter is right....Those two boys of yours need you to be strong and healthy and happy for them as well as for yourself...without you...what would they do? Look at things threw their eyes for a while...maybe you will see things a little differently...and above all...try to stay POSITIVE!!!
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"Fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out" Romans 12, verse 2
Thanks guys. I know who comes first. My well being reflects on my kids though, they feel through me. When i say take care of "me" i mean all of us. My kids are as much a part of me as the brain i use to think.
Plush wrote: Thanks guys. I know who comes first. My well being reflects on my kids though, they feel through me. When i say take care of "me" i mean all of us. My kids are as much a part of me as the brain i use to think.
Well then those kids have no hope
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Plush wrote: Thanks guys. I know who comes first. My well being reflects on my kids though, they feel through me. When i say take care of "me" i mean all of us. My kids are as much a part of me as the brain i use to think.
Well then those kids have no hope
That's it. No more boob shots for you. Does that foot taste good?
oh yes, you must always satisfy the monkey. 
